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Sep: Wouldn't you say it's a fucked up world
Being told yr a boy when you're a girl?
Taking what you need for ejaculation
Choking it down for the validation
Crystal: I'm not really sure what yr trying to say
Did you make it up just to feel okay?
Sep: I don't really mean to cut you off
But it's hard enough just trying to talk
I was there in the alley on my knees
Crystal: What was his name again?
Sep: Ronny,
He said he 'd kill me if I told a soul
Drown with the secret until I'm old
Crystal: Is that why you cry every time you fuck?
everytime yr weak everytime yr stuck?
Sep: I bleed like a queer with a jigsaw heart
Living as a mess and calling it art
And I wish I could act like I didn’t look back
I wish I could act like I didn’t look back
I wish I could act like I didn’t look back
But the thoughts are heavy and I start to crack
(x3)
Is that why you cry every time you fuck?
Every time yr weak, every time yr stuck?
I wish I could act like I didn’t look back
But the thoughts are heavy and I start to crack
Crystal: So when did you start to block it out?
Have you told yr mom what yr all about?
Sep: I told her how he locked his room
With me inside and his cock my doom
Crystal: She didn't believe a word you said I bet
Left you with a kiss as you crawled into bed
Sep: Can't really blame him-
Crystal: Please stop,
You have every right to hate his guts
Sep: I hurt with anger and I can't trust
Hang up my will and join the dust
I swell with pain when I smell his breath
Begging for answers before my death
Crystal: How can you bare all this guilt and shame
If I were you I'd change my name
Sep: As a broken fag I swear I'm strong
Sometimes I slip and it all goes wrong
Living in panic while feeling the breeze
Holding my heart as my blood runs free
I can't really feel what I can’t touch
It hurts to love when I can't say much
Crystal: I can tell now that you're not this size
You're a lot smaller than your disguise
I wish I could act like I didn’t look back
I wish I could act like I didn’t look back
I wish I could act like I didn’t look back
But the thoughts are heavy and I start to crack
(x3)
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